My Story.

Bullying is something, that we keep in ourselves. Something, that we’re scared to tell others. To me, it’s something scary. I experienced lots of it, and I can only say.. I was depressed. We can’t change, we are who we are.

The worst period is from primary to high school. Being a new kid, someone that they can call from the worst, or even hit. I wasn’t used to situations like that, I was a normal kind girl, who wanted to play and just make friends. Why bullies have to punish everyone around? When I was in high school, it was the worst time really. Being called from ugly, stupid etc. All I was thinking, was why? What did I do? I never received an answer, just more names. For few days I was crying, I wanted to change school, but I didin’t want to give them satisfaction.

I managed to get through that, but somehow they still did that. I never told my parents, or friends. I kept that in me, from all the time. Now, you know my story. That’s how I got social anxiety. That’s why I’m so shy with people, self- conscious, I’m even scared to come closer to make friends. But there’s one thing I learned from this. Never let them win. Never show them your fear, or they will continue to torture you.

It’s officially 3 years since I got anxiety & panic attacks. I’m glad I have the support from my family, and friends. But anxiety, really kills me inside. The not knowing if something I did was right, so many negative thoughts. Couple months ago, my friend told me about therapy sessions. To me, it was embarrassing to tell someone about my problems. I mean who was to listen to that? But I was wrong! I’m glad I went there, because my mind is so much better now. All these years, I was blaming myself. I was thinking it was my fault, they bullied me. It’s so refreshing to think, it’s not me.

I go there every couple of days, just for a check if i’m okay. And really, I suggest everyone to go to therapy sessions. Tell them about your problems, what’s been killing you. It’s hard writing this post, as I feel tears but I’m so proud of myself. I’m so proud that I ended this period. I’m stronger now, and if you ever see someone being bullied, don’t be afraid to help them, or call a teacher / parent. It’s hurtful to see a little kid, being called out from the worst, when they did absolutely nothing.

I hope I helped someone with this post, and remember you’re not alone. We all been there. x

Advertisements

January Blues? Does it exist?

2018 has started a little rough for me, because I’m tired all the time. But, I got engaged! It was so unexpected. Some people may say being a nanny it’s not that hard. Well, I work everyday except weekends, and working with kids about 1-5 year old it’s extremely hard.

Anyway, it hit me that January is a month of reflecting, of reminding myself that taking care of my body is important. So I started to exercise yoga. You guys have no idea, how much it helped me. Every morning at 8 am, I get up and I start to feel so much better.

b0d4cbf6e00d2fffc3046502f8e45fb0--yoga-for-you-yoga-art.jpg

As lot of people I plan resolutions, maybe it’s not an amazing idea because none of them are coming true. But since I started yoga, I felt incredible. My next resolution is to learn whole new language. In a previous post, I mentioned about new language, spanish and italian.

So I signed up for a class, for Spanish! Im giving it a chance, let me know if this language is super hard or not. I heard a lot of opinions about French, how not better learn it. January Blues gets me every evening. I feel so shattered, and I always get to bed with cup of tea, and watch my favourite tv shows or take a look at blogs.

Lately I’ve been having weird dreams, like I’m drowning or falling. I always check my dreams, but now I don’t believe it that much. Let me also know, what you guys have been dreaming about! I’m sorry guys, if this post will seem boring.

My tips for feeling open minded & fresh

Clean out your wardrobe! I know January just started, but hey Spring is so close! I can’t wait for flowery skirts, dresses & jeans jackets.

Organise your desk. Desk is the part of our jobs, it’s important to have it clean and not messy. I always have a little night lamp on it, pretty flower and my laptop. I don’t need that much stuff.

Exercise yoga. You’ll feel amazing, trust me. If you need channels to exercise, let me know!

Take long walks. What’s a nice life without walks? Everyone needs a little bit of fresh air sometimes, and to me summer is the best season to do it.

If you’re in school, study! I love to study, discover new subjects, things, words. I love walking to museums, art exhibitions & art galleries. Discover new cultures.

Travel! Like I mentioned, discover new cultures and be happy. Meet new people.

That’s my tips for being open minded & refreshed. If you guys have other tips, leave a comment.

I promised makeup favourites, but I’ll do it next week! Thank you for reading my blogs, for always being here for me.

 

Have a lovely afternoon, Caroline x

December Favorites.

Hello everyone.

It’s the third day of January, and I’m already loving it so much! Today’s weather is so pretty, it looks like spring already. Bring on dungarees, skirts & jeans jackets!

So in December, I got pretty good products which I love & use. First one is Batiste Dry Shampoo ‘Rose Gold’ I barely use dry shampoo’s but this one is incredible. Batiste deserves 11 points out of ten!

3.jpg

Next thing is Japanese Cherry Blossom Ultra Shea Butter, from Bath & Body Works. This smell oh my God! Incredible, fresh and the amazing thing is, after you have a shower and take it on your body, it’s just smooths perfectly and you can dress in a second!

5.jpg

Ziaja is an amazing brand, my face looks completely refreshed & amazing! On the photo is face gel, and tonic, for day and night. I got like 2 sets like this in my shelf.

6.jpg

I recently discovered Jack Wills, thanks to my sister. I’m in love with Body Spray & Body Lotion. I haven’t tried Body Wash yet, but the smell is so pretty and kinda flowery. I’m so sad because body spray is almost over, but I know what I’ll buy next.

That’s all my beauty favorites! When it comes to makeup, I recently bought Rimmel Lasting Finish foundation. It’s great by the way. If you want makeup favorites, let me know in the comments because I got a few new things I want to talk about.

Also, let me know in the comments if you tried my favorites, and tell me yours! Have a nice day, afternoon or evening.

Life Update.

Hello everyone!

It’s good to be finally back on my blogging area. I haven’t posted anything since November, I’m so sorry guys. I just been busy, I literally became a nanny. Anyway, I hope you guys forgive me. December has been literally crazy for me! Making meals for Christmas Eve, spending time woth my sister, kids, parents. I’m swamped all the time, but I missed blogging community so much. Maybe you guys can welcome me again with open arms.

I got many favorites from Ziaja, I love this products so much. I didin’t make any photos, but I will next time. Today this post will be more casual. So it’s 2018! A year I will make lots and lots of changes. I want to travel more, change my hair maybe dye them to blonde, although I don’t know because I love my brown color. I want to pierce my ears more, I love earrings so much. I want to learn spanish & italian, I started spanish! It’s hard but I hope I will learn it pretty soon. I’m happy with my life at the moment, I’m soon ending my school and I’ll study in med school. I don’t know what speciality yet, but I’ll figure it out.

original.gif

Tomorrow I’ll post December favourites. I’m pretty excited about them. I hope you all have an amazing evening, and let me know if med school is hard!

Chatty Post.

Happy Thanksgiving guys!

I hope your day is amazing, and filled with lots and lots of food. Today’s post is going to be kind of chatty one, I don’t have the exact topic but I hope that’s okay.

I went shopping today, and I only ended up with a bath bomb. It’s from bombcosmetics.co.uk and I honestly love it. I haven’t used it yet, but it’s beautiful. And the water looks like that, after adding the bath bomb (Second photo from the site)

”A glitter bomb full of surprises and sweet cherry scents to leave you feeling sparkling! Unlock the Bergamot & Sweet Orange essential oils to awaken the senses as the natural butters prep your skin to party!

With a pure cocoa butter and shea butter swirl to deeply moisturise and help nourish your skin. Bomb Cosmetics glitters are bio- degradable and won’t harm the environment”

When I was scrolling through my timeline, I saw Jordan’s new skirt. It’s so pretty, I’m not a big fan of skirts & dresses. But I loved this one so much. It’s worth it to buy it, you can get it here.

https://www.amywinwoodfashiondesign.co.uk/product-page/hello-miss-jordan-blush-tutu

It’s from Jordan’s Instagram https://www.instagram.com/p/Bb1I7VCnbPn/

DPTWLWVWAAAh7iD.jpg

It’s such a beautiful material, and I’m so proud of Jordan and AmyEwinWood, because it was a collaboration.

I hope you can guys forgive me the bad quaility, of my photos because I don’t have a professional camera, it’s just my phone. Anyway, it’s Thanksgiving today! I hope you’re spending this day with your family and friends. I don’t have it here in my country, with turkey sounds delicious! So to my American followers, happy Thanksgiving.

I’m also glad you guys liked my Interview post. If you want to be interviewed, why not! I’ll change the questions, and I’m curious who would like to do it. I also want blogger here, to do a guest post, about anything you’d like.

Also it’s been ages since I’ve been to the cinema, so guys let me also know what should I see, what movie is worth seeing, it would be amazing.

”Stay positive and happy. Work hard and don’t give up hope. Be open to criticism and keep learning. Surround yourself with happy, warm and genuine people” Positive quote for today.

See you very soon, and I hope my post it’s not too short, but I wanted it this way. Have a lovely afternoon! x

Interview

Hello everyone. Happy Monday!

For the past couple of days, I wanted to do a little interview with a blogger / youtuber. So today’s interview, is going to be with Scarlett Dixon. You may know her as Scarlett_London on twitter. She’s such an amazing person, and go follow her now, albo subscribe her youtube channel. She deserves the love. Anyway, let’s start.

1. When did you first start to blog? Were you scared to do that?

1. I first started blogging in 2011, because I actually wanted to study journalism at University and thought it would be helpful to have an online platform to showcase and practice my writing skills. I wasn’t scared, as I didn’t even know that what I’d created was called a blog at first, I loved every minute of having an outlet for my work!

2. At what time of blogging, did you bought your own domain? 

2. I bought my own domain pretty early on. I’ve got no idea how I worked out how to do that, because my technical skills were and still are, lacking. But I think it was lovely to have a .com and it felt more professional.

3. Were you at WordPress, Blogspot, or other site? 

3. I actually started off using a blogging platform called blog.com, which has since closed down. I had a bit of a disaster actually, because I almost lost two years of my work when the site closed down, I quickly had to move to a self-hosted wordpress. It taught me a lot about backing up my work and making sure that I owned my own content.

4. What awards did you won for your blog? 

4. In 2012 and 2013, I was nominated for Cosmopolitan’s Best Newcomer Blogger and Company Magazine’s best fashion blog. I didn’t win either, but it was amazing to be nominated – and the prizes of both actually went to two friends, so it was well deserved. Em won the Cosmo Award and In The Frow won Company’s award, so I’m sure you can agree, two very deserving winners!

5. Did you find any post hard to publish? 

5. I found my IBS post very difficult to publish, because I’d never revealed my struggles so publicly before and I wasn’t sure what the reaction would be. But since then, thousands of people have reached out to me to tell me about their own IBS struggles and how I’ve helped them. So it’s all been worthwhile!

6. Can you tell us, your biggest blogging inspirations? 

6. I take inspiration from fellow bloggers and friends. I think Hannah Gale is an incredible writer and I savour every last word she writes, it’s so engaging and hilariously relatable. Then I also love Lydia Millen and InTheFrow, for their incredible editorial style content and flawless sense of style. I love my friend Em Sheldon’s wanderlusting blog, sprinkled with fashion and fitness tips. There are so many bloggers I love and follow. I think it’s important to be immersed within the blogging world and engaging with other people’s content and creativity.

*Amazing pictures from Scarlett’s post.

7. How did you felt, when you first won your award? 

7. As mentioned, I didn’t win the award unfortunately but I wasn’t expecting to either haha. I’m a small fish in a big pond and hopefully my content will be recognised one day, but for now I’m pretty happy with putting out content that I’m personally proud of.

8. What social media is your current favorite, and what is the worst one? 

8. I love YouTube at the moment. It’s my newest platform but I’m enjoying the interaction and the multi-dimensional format of being able to speak to my audience and have them get to know me even better. I just wish I’d started YouTube sooner. Worst wise, I think they all have their benefits but I’m still a bit of a novice at Pinterest!

9. Who did you tell the first time, about your blog? Family, friends? 

9.My mum was the first person I told about my blog. Back when I started, blogging definitely wasn’t as big as it is now. It was hardly much of a thing. So I don’t think many people understood what I actually did. Saying that, I was quite secretive about it in the beginning. I felt a bit embarrassed about it – baring your thoughts online for all to see is still quite a new concept!

10. Have you ever thought about starting a youtube channel? 

10. I started my YouTube in January and I’m absolutely loving it. I do wish I’d started it sooner, but I think I’m much more settled and in a good headspace, so I probably started at the perfect time for me!

x
Best wishes, 
 
Scarlett Dixon
That’s the entire interview, I wanted to keep it simple & normal. I love her answers and I hope you too. Let me know in the comments, what did you love about this interview, and see you very soon lovelies. Also here are links to Scarlett’s social medias.

 

Twitter:@scarlett_london
YouTube:scarlettdixon124
Instagram: @scarlettlondon
Blog: scarlettlondon.com

50 questions you’ve never been asked tag

I was going through blogs, and I noticed this tag. I thought why not, and I took inspiration from believeinamiracle.co.uk Samantha. Her blog is so lovely, and follow her now. Here we go.

1. Whats your favourite candle scent? 

I think my favourite scent is cinnamon, or vanilla. I always loved smelling this, and      yeah it’s perfect for Autumn too.

2. What female celebrity do you wish was your sister?

I love Kristen Bell & Mila Kunis so much, so I think both of them.

3. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother?

Hmm male celebrity.. I think Jimmy Fallon. He’s so funny!

4. How old do you think you’ll be when you get married?

I think maybe.. 30 or 35.

5. Do you know a hoarder?

Hmm.. maybe me! Haha. I sometimes collect so many things, but not it a creepy way.

6. Can you do the splits?

No, never.

7. How old were you when you first learned to ride a bike?

Hmm I can’t remember, but maybe 5 years old.

8. How many oceans have you swam in?

I think in one, when I was younger. I can’t swim!

9. How many countries have you visited?

Only England.

10. Is anyone in your family in the army?

Nope.

11. What would you name your daughter if you had one?

Ahh I’m obssesed with names. I have so many girl names, so the first one is Cornelia, I flippin love it so much. The others are Autumn, Sky, Elle, Victoria, Haley and Brooke. (Not at all from One Tree Hill).

12. What would you name your son if you had one?

I think boy names are so difficult. Maybe Jaime, James, Chuck, Elliot or Nathan. I’m obssesed with OTH omg.

13. What’s the worst grade you’ve got in a test?

Hm, I think F. I’m such a ‘good’ student haha.

14. What was your favourite TV show as a kid?

Radiostation Roscoe (If anyone remembers, hit me up!) Lizzie McGuire and Goosebumps!

15. What did you dress up as for Halloween when you were 8?

I didin’t dress up at all.

16. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight series?

To be honest, I hate Harry Potter. I read Hunger Games once, but that’s it. I saw only Twilight as a movie.

17. Would you rather have an American accent or a British one?

As many shows I watched, I’d love to have a British accent. It would suit me so much.

18. Did your mother go to university?

Yeah.

19. Are your grandparents still married?

They sadly passed away, but they were still married yes.

20. Have you ever taken karate lessons?

I never was interested in that.

21. Do you know who Kermit the Frog is?

Of course, yeah!

22. What was the first amusement park you went to?

I don’t remember sorry.

23. What language beside your native language would you like to be fluent in?

Definitely Spanish, French & Japanese.

24. Do you spell the colour Grey or Gray?

Grey.

25. Is your father bald?

Partly haha.

26. Do you know any triplets?

No, just twins.

27. Do you prefer Titanic or The Notebook?

Always The Notebook. Maybe because I love Rachel McAdams so much & Ryan Gosling. So obssesed.

28. Have you ever had Indian food?

Once yeah. But it was so spicy!

29. What’s the name of your favourite restaurant?

I very rare go to any restaurants, so I don’t have one. Maybe Sphinx.

30. Have you ever been to Nando’s?

No, but I’d love to!

31. Do you belong to any warehouse stores? (Costco, Bookers ect)

No, I don’t.

32. What would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender?

I think.. Thomas.

33. If you have a nickname what is it?

I don’t have one. I just like when people short out my name, like Caro.

34. Who’s your favourite person in the world?

Always my mom. She’s my rock and the best person in the world.

35. Would you rather live in the countryside or the city?

I was born & raised in the city, so I’d never trade it for the countryside.

36. Can you whistle?

Sadly no, even though I tried!

37. Do you sleep with a nightlight?

No, I have to have a dark room, otherwise I won’t fall asleep.

38. Do you eat breakfast every morning?

No, and my mom always tells me to eat one, because I’ll get sick!

There is no 39th question.

40. What medical conditions do you have?

Luckily none, I just wear glasses.

41. Have many times have you been to hospital?

I think only once, to visit my friend.

42. Have you ever seen Finding Nemo?

Yeah, and finding Dory too.

43. Where do you buy your jeans?

Hmm.. H&M, New Look, River Island, ZARA or New Yorker.

44. What’s the last compliment you got?

When I was doing my eyelashes in henna, and the beautician said I have such a beautiful eyelashes. Because I have them so long, without mascara. It was so nice.

45. Do you usually remember your dreams in the morning?

I tried to, but not really no.

46. What flavour tea do you enjoy?

Lately I enjoy Yorkshire Tea, but I love the fruity ones.

47. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own?

Counting would take me a long time.. I’m kidding. Just a few!

48. What religion will you raise your children to practice?

It will be their decision.

49. How old were you when you found out Santa wasn’t real?

I think maybe 7, 8 years old.

50. Why do you have a blog?

Why do I have a blog.. Because I love being in this community, support people, share my posts, stories. It’s incredible, when I look into other bloggers, they give me so many motivation and strength.

Thank you guys for reading my blog, telling me different kind of advices and I love you so much. I wouldn’t be here, if it wasn’t for you guys.

See you very soon x